The world right now teaches you that you have to work hard. People share quotes on Instagram telling you to basically exhaust yourself to be successful and it all stems from starting your day at 6 in the morning to GET SHIT DONE.
I just want to say that i’m over it, i’m over trying to pretend to be something i’m not. A morning person. I cannot do it. And i think it’s unfair to tell people that they have to be a morning person to be successful, because nowhere in the rules of life does it say that.
Don’t get me wrong, when i had a full time job i was really good at getting up early. I would purposely get into work an hour early so i could then leave an hour early. And actually, i got most of my work done during the hour i was alone in the office. So i could be a morning person.
But i’m not. Not when i’m “self-employed”, as i’m calling myself now to manifest some really good collaborations. I don’t see the point in waking up early when there’s not really a lot to do.
I remember reading an interview with InTheFrow in a Blogosphere Magazine a few years ago. I love Victoria and her work ethic really inspires me, but the way she spoke about exhausting herself to get to where she is really didn’t sit right with me.
I don’t think it’s right to be encouraging people to work until the depths of the night and then get up at 5am to start working again. Over working yourself isn’t glamorous! You can still work hard without having to settle for 3 hours of sleep a night.
I’m a night owl, through and through, and will often stay up working on things until 1am. I seem to get a lot more done when it’s dark and nobody else is awake. But then i sleep in until 10am because of how late i stayed up.
If i need to, i will gladly get up early and get ready. But if it’s not required, why should i? I don’t know anything that i could get done at 7am that i couldn’t also get done at 11am.
I do feel guilty about it. I feel like how will i ever succeed if i can’t get up early and start bossing life the second i get up. I see people all over instagram, that do insta full time, getting up before the sun does and i’m like…what do you even do?!
I honestly wouldn’t know what to do with myself at that time. If i get up early, all i’m thinking about is how much i wish i was still asleep. I got up at 9.30 today and wrote 2 blog posts and sent an invoice off before 12. I’d say that’s not bad going.
I’m just sick of feeling like i’m less deserving of success because i enjoy a lie in. I think it’s a lie and hard work doesn’t have to be dedicated to the hours before 9am. Not everyone is built for being up early, just like not everyone is built for working into the night.
Although, i suppose it stems from not feeling like i have much of a purpose at the moment. I can’t see much of a reason to get up early most days and i’m not sure if it’s causing an issue whilst trying to grow my blog or not.
I can’t tell you if i’d be more successful if i regularly got up early, because i don’t know. I wouldn’t do anything differently over the last few months except maybe not play Sims 4 everyday for a week straight when i feel down in the dumps.